Interview: Elena Zayac
Photography: Dmitry Komissarenko
I’m waiting to turn 50. Things got a lot easier after 30. It’s a great number and everything changes along with it. People can’t tell you what to do anymore, especially in the industry. At 16 I was very confident and ambitious but after 25 I’ve started doubting myself.
A car hit me in August of 2015. It was a very weird year for me and certainly a drawback. Physically I was very slow and always behind everyone else. Yet I am an extremely fast thinker. The doctor even said I have a manic thought process. When you are in that sort of mental state yet your body is not moving – it has a toll on you.
I was extremely eager to go on tour in 2016 and this desire got me back on my feet. I was also extremely eager to release a new album. My fans were so dedicated that they’ve even started a promo campaign and the media caught up with it. They’ve obtained my 8-year-old demo and presented it as a new single. Even my father said he liked it. I was so flattered by these efforts. In reality the prospect of a new album is still floating in air. I have a name in mind though but it’s quite personal for now.
I’m wearing a white t-shirt on which I wrote ‘Peace’ in red. It’s my way with expressing solidarity. Would I be capable of taking action in a war? No. But I would do everything possible as an artist to find another way even if I had to die while doing it. There is always an alternative to violence and unnecessary death.
My infantilism doesn’t bother me. It’s part of my identity. I grew up in Wandsworth – the most boring place in London. My parents wanted a house with a garden. Now I’ve based my studio in that house so I always keep in mind the boy I used to be back then. I still remember the feeling of innocence and isolation.
The house is located on a hill so you always see London from afar. Once I told my mother: “Well I’m off to London” and she replied: “But you are in London!”.
I was always fascinated by such places – places with no identity. I ended up getting an apartment in Bloomsbury so I live behind King’s Cross railway station. It’s the most peaceful place on Earth. Virginia Woolf used to live three houses down from my place. I think her spirit still lives there. I am quite enchanted by the idea of haunted houses.
Looking after plants also fascinates me. With my field of activity I can’t really get a dog, cat or become a parent. But I can own plants that make me happy. It’s quite therapeutic to grow something. Communicating with the flora comes so natural to me, unlike my relationship with new technologies. I am at conflict with them. When I was growing up the idea of mobile phones was so futuristic and bizarre. I wasn’t obliged to answer phone calls and I wasn’t supposed to be connected all the time. And now you are tied to all these devices that know everything about you. Recently my phone broke and I was so happy to be detached from social media for a while. I think in the future we will observe a rebellion against such matters. People will work and learn what they require from technology and not the other way around. The idea of Skynet is genius but an organic body always wins. Just like music that is passed through someone’s heart.