Vocalist, songwriter, and music producer based in London
Interview: Elena Savlokhova
Photo: Dylan Chubb
What excites you the most in what you do?
Like many creators, the state of natural high I get when an idea begins to magically fall into places.
Why do you think that music is such a vital element to (y)our existence?
Being aware we are aware is that one thing unique to us and puts up on the highest position in the evolutionary hierarchy on this planet. Music, as a form of art, is one that belongs to self-appreciation of who we are, how we feel, and used as a tool to provoke, and inspire others to go higher in their cognition and level of consciousness
What were you like as a kid? What were you into?
I was inquisitive, troubled, deep, sentimental, and melancholic. I was into Philosophy, psychology, astronomy, and books.
What questions were you asking yourself while working on your new LP and what is the philosophy behind it?
The question that I always go back to is.. am I being honest with myself? Can I do better? How do I feel about it? What do I really want?
This chapter of the songs, this LP, is the ‘love’ chapter.
My philosophy about romantic love in its purest form is its lonely, transient, and unrequited nature. You can think of it as an achingly beautiful sunset or a blossoming flower. It’s fragile, vulnerable, and sacred, and always in transit. It’s real but unattainable. The only thing I can do is to capture it, with my words and melodies.
Do you ever feel confined in your own imagination or is it always easy for you to access a creative space?
I used to get in my own way a lot. Low self-confidence and insecurities. These days I’m much better. My work has been stable and consistent recently.
What fictional reality would you like to temporarily live in and why?
I would like to live in a reality where we are and we feel invincible. Like in a lucid dream. We are gods. You think and there it is. Because it is true freedom, where there is absolute knowing, faith, and bliss.
You’ve once said that ‘great art sometimes comes from deep suffering’. In your opinion, why is it that turmoil often becomes the origin of meaningful creation?
In this reality we live in, somehow, the unspoken rule seems to be ‘the soul grows through pain and suffering’. Creating something worthwhile means pushing boundaries, going somewhere no one has been to, speaking of words that trigger, inspire and upgrade others understandings of the world and themselves. Not only great art, but the finest part of human characters, the most inspiring stories, life’s deepest meanings come from inevitable tragedies. These experiences is just our souls training ground.
Taken from forthcoming album ‘There’s A Funeral In My Heart, For Every Man I Loved’. Subscribe to the mailing list via fifirong.com to watch in 4K
Do you feel an obligation that your new work should be better than everything you’ve done before?
Nope. It’s undefinable anyway. Who thinks is better? Me or the listeners?
For me, I have to be better in some ways, usually technically just for the sake of me wanting to get better, but I can’t force better songs out of me. I don’t really mind of others’ opinions. It’s the soundtrack of their lives when they listen to my music. I should feel honoured, unattached, and no judgment.
What is your stance on imperfections, both in work and in life?
I don’t know what perfection is. So imperfection is all there is.
Was there ever a moment when you were fed up with music?
There was a time I couldn’t feel my passion and drive at all, but ‘fed up’ is an understatement- I was in serious trouble. It was a dangerous place to be in when the spirit is contaminated. Everything else went down with it. But I never lost hope I could come back from it, and here I am. Bringing back deeper work after all the suffering.
What was the best gig you’ve attended as part of an audience and what made it so special for you?
Not many times when the artist on stage ‘had’ me. But those times they just hooked me emotionally and put me in a time tunnel. The villagers was a relatively recent one I can remember.
Do you tend to see the best in people or are you cautious of the less appealing side of human nature?
100 percent seeing the best in people. I’m a mediator, peacemaker type of person. I just never learned people could actually do me harm. I’m very naive in that way.
How do you want your work to echo in the culture?
Between the highest mountains and lowest valleys… Nah I don’t know. I’ll do the best on my part, and let the heaven and earth do their own thing.
What truth have you learned after all these years you’ve lived?
there is no meaning to anything except the meaning you give it.
What’s coming up for you?
Finishing this album, let more people hear it, shows/tours, and keep exploring things I haven’t done artistically, visually, and sonically. Keep learning and growing as a person and an artist behind the art.