Interview, photo: Elena Savlokhova
When beholding the fierce and manic force of Blush Response within the walls of a pitch-black room full of other same-kind mortals, one cannot resist the sensation of absolute catharsis – it’s a space of an eternal now, where even the slightest thought is simply non-existent. It’s a subliminal sacrifice one effortlessly makes to whatever surpasses the margins of the cosmos with all its galaxies. All for the sake of enduring this infernal rapture, all for the sake of dissolving in the bliss of this imperishable and unforgettable energy.
Listen to the new album INFINITE DENSITY here.
How to survive in the nightlife?
Always remember to go home.
Sometimes you don’t?
Yeah… and then you end up staying in the club for 30 hours and you wonder where the hell your brain has been the entire time.
What do you sacrifice for your calling?
A normal stable life.
Do you want a normal stable life?
Every person has a void deep inside, what does yours look like?
Mine would be a place with no sound. I need sound to live.
What are you trying to convey to humanity with your work?
It’s an expression of myself, of who I am, of what I’m feeling. There is no political statement, it is just pure emotion.
What were you passionate about as a kid?
I really loved gaming. I was pretty much obsessed. I was also into science fiction books and films. I mostly hung out in my room, left to my devices, not going outside for days at a time. I didn’t have many friends so my main companions were met in virtual spaces.
What is your favorite video game?
As a child I would say Mega Man X series, it was really fucking cool and I played all of them religiously, but nowadays I would say that the new Deus Ex games are pretty cool, or Skyrim… I’ll tell you what’s really great! I just played this game called “Prey”, it’s from Bethesda and it’s a really crazy dark sci-fi adventure game and it’s totally immersive, just like Skyrim is.
What is the most precious gift you’ve ever received from someone?
My first synthesizer from my father when I was 16, he got me a microKorg. It isn’t super cool now in terms of having gear, but it was fucking mind blowing back then. It changed my life.
So basically your father is the reason you are where you are now.
He was the one who was willing to put up the cash.
What is one thing you want to wipe out from existence?
Social media. I think it has created a scarily radicalized situation where people are more interested in bickering with each other and virtue signaling for political and social points rather than actually improving things in their day to day life.
What is your favorite conspiracy theory?
9/11 was an inside job.
Things you can’t unthink.
The monotony of life. Once you go somewhere, you travel somewhere, you see something different – you’re still you at the end of the day and you have to deal with yourself.
Is having to deal with yourself a problem for you?
No, it’s not a problem, but sometimes it’s a bit defeating to think ‘this is it’. What I mean is, I want to see worlds explode, I want to see things happen, I need more from life. I want to be more than human.
What is the best gig you’ve ever performed?
I recently played at KHIDI in Tbilisi, Georgia and it was a revelation. It’s definitely my favorite club. It’s such a cool space with incredible sound and the people there are really into the music. There is no pretension, just genuine appreciation, and I could feel that when I played. Not to mention, Tbilisi is a wonderful place with amazing food! I hope to make it back there soon.
What about the best gig you’ve attended as a spectator?
I saw Mika Vainio and Franck Vigroux together at Berghain and it was a religious experience. Just Mika’s sounds with Franck doing this crazy vocoder over it – it was just mind blowing. And I was able to stand right in the center and have all the sound beam directly into my brain.
What would your eternity look like?
Doing the same thing I do now – making music every day. I’m happy like that.
What interests you outside of music?
I mentioned gaming before. I also love film, some favorites would be Blade Runner, Apocalypse Now, The Shining, Lost Highway. I am also into fashion. I’m really into my friend Richard Söderberg’s lines called Söderberg and Obscur – all of his stuff is amazing and he is my favorite designer. Other designers I’m into include Demobaza, Thom Krom, and Junus Coban.
What’s the last film you’ve seen that impressed you?
Blade Runner 2049. A recent favorite is ‘Beyond The Black Rainbow’ (2010), it’s by Panos Cosmatos, it’s his first film. I’ve watched it so many times over the years since it came out, it’s a really-really brooding evil film. I would say out of recent films that have come out it’s the one that made the most impact on me. It’s funny because I kept showing it to my friends and then I realised that I had seen it more than any other film, probably 30 times now.
What’s it about?
It’s about the dangers of unchecked psychedelic exploitation and the arrogance that can corrupt someone into thinking that forcing that psychedelia onto everyone will solve all the problems in the entire world. The main characters in the film live in the aftermath of this era and have to confront the personal trauma it has caused them.
What new experiences do you desire?
I want to see everywhere, I want to go everywhere, I want to meet everyone, I want to do everything. I simply desire new experience every day – exploring new sound in my studio, being out in the world. I want to go to the Moon.
What’s the best place in nature you’ve been to?
I was in the Virgin Islands swimming between two islands, which were Saint Thomas and Saint John, I think. I used to be a very good swimmer, and I used to teach kids how to swim. I’m from Miami, so… My parents didn’t care what I did in the ocean so I would just go swimming for hours by myself. So yeah, I was swimming out between these two islands and the water was crystal clear and no matter how deep you go, you could see straight to the bottom, you could see all the sealife, coral reefs, sea urchins sticking out of the reef, and sharks. I had this funny experience where I swam out, maybe, a kilometer out and I was just gazing at everything and I kind of turned around and saw the shore very far back and I thought to myself ‘a fucking shark could eat me right now and nobody would find my body’, so I swam back and never did it again. It was an amazingly beautiful experience though.
There’s this film by Yorgos Lanthimos ‘The Lobster’, where single people are meant to find a partner in 45 days, and if they don’t, they must choose an animal to transform into. What animal would you choose?
I would be a cassowary. It’s this crazy bird that as far as I know descended from the Velociraptor. It is aggressive as hell and will eviscerate anyone. It also looks freaky, like a living dinosaur.
How would you describe the aesthetic of Blush Response to someone who is not familiar with your music?
High tech, low life.
What psychological or physical effect do you want your music to have on people?
I want to leave people unable to live life the way they did before hearing my music.
What’s the shitiest thing about living in Berlin?
The food sucks.
What’s the best thing?
There is a ton of music and art happening – it’s inspiring. You can go out every night and see something cool, you can easily find people to collaborate with. It’s just a fertile ground for people in the art field and I’ve never been somewhere like that. New York wasn’t like that and Miami is definitely not like that.
If not Berlin, then where would you live?
Somewhere with nice weather and beaches.
What do you think is highly overrated?
Share an absurd and useless piece of information.
Life is absurd.
What do you dislike about yourself?
Not much, I’m pretty content.
What question would you like to be asked at an interview and what would your answer be?
I leave that to the interviewers. Thinking of answers is hard enough!